2011

Pada mula nya memang agak tegang lah bila macam-macam berlaku sebelum decide nak keluar new year nihh aaaaa tak nak cerita lahhh o.o

Sambut new year dekat Solaris. Belakang rumah je brader. Tak jauh mana haha aku tak heran pun. Sebab dekat sangat. Lagi pun balik sekolah ada juga lepak sana kan. Okay this year punya was not bad lah. Okay sangat. Haha tapi memang terbuka sangat. Everything is open. People dancing, singging and urghh mabuk-ing -.- but thank god takda apa yang berlaku.

Went there with hakim, kak qy, kak ila, kamil and syafridan. It was awesome dudez :P aw aww having fun together. Eventho not all of us ada kan, masing-masing ada hal kan, so nak buat macam mana but memang gila bestlahhhhh tengok fireworks. Warna warni. Aku sumpah ke-semangat-an sebab yela, last year and past year jarang tengok bunga api kan. last year pun sebab kerja kan, tengok pun dalam cermin hilton jela huuu.


Sebenarnya tak bawa kamera pun. Datang tak expect apa2 pun just nak tengok fireworks. Then kak qy bawak kamera dia. So berposing ler kita semuaaa

Bergembira bersama kak qy, dan kak ila. Saya sayang mereka berduaaaa

Fireworks tak clear sangat lah huuu. Tak banyak photo pun sebenarnya.
So, aku just nak ucapkan selamat tahun baru 2011.
Semoga 2011 menjadi tahun yang lebih baik daripada tahun sebelumnya :)

sbf okey ;)

Entri ni khas buat si dia. dengar baik-baik okay, buat SI DIA :) aku tak nak tulis pasal hal lain selain si dia.
Biar aku cerita kan sedikit sebanyak tetapi harap tak banyak sebab aku tahu ada orang mesti tak suka, HAHA.
Ini buat kali pertamanya aku buat entri khas buat seorang jejaka yang bernama Luqman Hakim bin Mohd Suhaimi.
Mungkin sepanjang tahun 2010 belum pernah aku buat entri pasal dia. haha bukan apa, mungkin pergaduhan tu lebih banyak berbanding kami baik :)

Okay, aku kenal dia dah lama. Tapi tak sangatlah. Dah tiga tahun aku kenal dia. Masa tu umur aku baru 15 , form 3 kan. Dia form 5 haha. Then ada lah tukar-tukar number. sebab dia yang minta kut kat memba aku. Haaaa malasnya nak ingat sebab malu haha. Then kira aku memang kenal jugalah hati dia macam mana KOT haha.

Aku suka panggil dia Hakim takpun uchuk :D ngada-ngada kan? haha biarlah.

Aku dengan dia lebih banyak bergaduh berbanding manja-manja, romantik, semualah yang best-best. Selalu sangat lah nak bertekak. Apa yang tak pernah? habis semua ahhh memang takda lah nak sorok-sorok. Tapi takpa, as long as aku dengan dia saling paham.

Aku bukannya macam siapa-siapa lah yang asal kau nak couple ke ada awek ke balak ke, kau kena ikut kepala si laki takpun si pompuan. Ahh lantak lah. Buat hal sendiri asalkan dia tahu cukup, itu lah aku. tak ada yang lain tu je. Tapi jangan terlebih poyo pulak lah kan cerita dia. Melampau tak amik tahu haa serupa kau tak payah nak gatal-gatal bercintun.

Aku tak tahu berapa lama aku boleh bertahan dengan dia. Kalau ada jodoh, alhamdulillah. Kalau takda, terima saja lah. Sama macam dia juga. Takda lah bila orang kata tu macam tak nak terima kenyataan kan?

Aku suka nak marah dia, semua lah salahkan dia. Tapi bila dia dah balik Kuala Pilah aku pulak macam sedih nak nangis. Padahal dah biasa kan. Mungkin rasa bersalah kut. Maklumlah sebab aku ni mudah sangat lembut hati haha.

Aku macam kaku lahh nak cerita haha tadi kemain semangat nak buat entri khas ni haha. Takpala, mungkin benar aku memang tak reti nak cerita-cerita pasal orang yang aku rasa teramat istimewa ni. Cukuplah sekadar kepalanya, mungkin badan tak dapat ah haha. Aku macam blur -.- tenkiu

Kepada si dia, walau macam mana sekalipun, kau sentiasa di fikiranku, hatiku :)
selalu ingat ayat ni tau,


Menyintaimu adalah perkara yang paling bermakna bagi diriku

lampu merah

Versi melayu pula lah, asyik-asyik english je.

Susah sangat nak cari kerja part-time sekarang kat KL ni. walaupun bersepah-sepah kedai, tapi takda yang kosong. Kalau ada pun, full time. Nohal lah cita dia sebab aku memang suka tak duduk rumah neh. peliz lah nyah -.- i memang suka bekerja dan cari duit  o.o

Mak dah booking nama untuk driving class dekat pakcik. Kalau tak minggu ni dah start boleh amik dah, tapi apakan daya, mak banyak nak guna duit untuk bayar bil, duit kereta, semualah. kalau diikutkan pun gaji bersih mak tak cukup nak menampung yuran driving class. tapi takpalah, bila-bila pun boleh. lagi pun mak tahu yang aku memang boleh bawa kereta, cuma kena ikut syarat lah, lesen mesti ada.

Tu sebab aku ni tak jadi anak ngada-ngada. aku belajar cari duit. nak mewah-mewah pun kena cari sendiri. campakkan ayat kasihan korang dekat aku +_+

apa barang guna duit mak apak nak pi enjoy lagak sana sini :P 

ntah lah. aku nak cari duit pun payah sebab kerja memang susah nak dapat sekarang. aku baru pergi dua francais. harap sangat dapat panggilan *berdoa

Memba semua masing-masing dah buat hal sendiri. Nak contact pun kalau perlu je. Kalau setakat nak lepak-lepak tak dapat nak janjilah. memanglah, masing-masing pun nak cari duit sndri. Dulu kalau time skolah bole kumpul duit belanja nak beli topup bagai. La ni? nak pakai apa? habuk pun tarak -.-

New Year punya cerita? aku tak plan nak pergi mana lagi. macam kusut. hati tak sedap gundah gulana. selagi aku tak dapat kerja, macam ni lah jadinya. busuk gila. apahal lah susah sangat nak cari kerja? new year tahun ni ntah best ke tak. ntah lah weyyyyyyyyyy

APA LAGI?

Memang entri kali ni agak membosankan. aku sendiri rasa macam tu, i tak tahu nak kata apa dah. i nak cabut dulu. chiaoo

REBOUND

SATURDAY / DECEMBER 25

Before its too late, i would like to wish a Merry Christmas too all  and especially to My beloved Cathy preety naughty <3 i love you babe :) wehee

Last night, i went to Cathy's house for her Christmas dinner. Haha thanks to her for the cookies. Went there with hakim. Then we went to Desa Park City and lepaking untill late. After that he sent me back home. 




SUNDAY / DECEMBER 26


Okay, about today. I dont feel like i want to go out with anyone. either my friends or my family or hakim.  I already  planned to go out today with wani and imand, go find some part-time job. But im tooo lazyyyyyyyy lah . But mayb yes for tomorrow. Hopefully i can get the job :D *praying


I just dont understand about some people. Like this people. Always forcing others for her own self-interest. Like what the fuck lah? Thank god i still can control my patience. we live with people who have different feelings and we not live with robots. Am i too rude? i dont think so. because this is too polite, i think. Even tho i know my english language are not that SUPERB as yours but i keep learning and learning and trying untill i get that superb. I still remember it :)

Enough, if you look at you self, please write it down, how many peoples that you had already work together and  when you ask for her/his help,  did he/she will help you? please. i know who you are. i dont think you can get along with others like you did it with me. if you read this, im so sorry because i dont think i can stand it anymore. go find other people hands. 

" Jangan selalu merendahkan aku" 

Thank You.

habis juga akhirnya

Aku tetap juga ingin menuntut ilmu. Kalau boleh ke peringkat paling atas. Tapi, aku ceritakan tentang keadaan sekarang iaitu sekolah :)

SYUKURRRR

sudah tamat sijil pelajaran malaysia yang setiap orang harus lalui sebelum ke IPT. Tak dapat bayangkan bagaimana keadaan di IPT nanti. Hm baik ke tak baik? Macam mana sistem pembelajarannya? Ada tak pengawas akan buat spot check tiap2 hari isnin. Ada perhimpunan tak?

Aku sedih sebenarnya sebab aku tahu aku akan rindu semua itu. Rindu untuk bertekak dengan kawan aku. Rindu sangat2. Nak bertekak, nak mengutuk, semualahh. sebenarnya itulah sahabat sebenar. Kalau sahabat sebenar yang gelar kita macam2 lah baru betul. Nanti aku tunjukan mesej cathy hantar kan kepada aku. Tapi bukanlah sekarang :)

Keadaan di sekolah tadi agak bersepah lah. Haha masing2 sebok untuk memerdekakan diri sendiri, begitu juga aku haha tapi aku berjaya ciptakan sejarah yang aku tak keluar untuk kesemua paper. Please kawan, bukan nak rasa diri bagus, sebab aku dah janji dekat diri aku :] aku takkan sia-siakan masa ini. Mak abah aku tak galakkan juga. Aku nak keluar sangat tapi tak berdayaaa.

Tak sangaka Mama Sherah datang untuk menjenguk pelajar dia walaupun dia kerap marah kami semua. Tapi takpa, tu tanda sayang  bukan? :) senyum untuk itu.

Semua berselerak, berkumpul di bilik SPBT pulangkan buku, aduhhh kesempitan. Tapi best, dalam masa yang sama ramai kawan2 minta signature hee :) aku pun apa lagi, amik kesempatanlah dan yang pasti semua kawan aku itu ialah sejantina dengan aku. Tabik ;D

HMMM tak sangak dua hari aku tak dimiliki :) cewah poyo gila ayat

Memang aku tak boleh lah, sebab aku sayangkan dia. Please maafkan aku sebab aku buat kau menderita. Untuk pengetahuan kau, seumur hidup aku, tak pernah melihat lelaki macam kau dan berbuat sesuatu sebabnya adalah aku. Tersentap :/
Rasa bersalah sangat. Tapi, akhirnya aku buat keputusan yang aku rasa aku patut buat :)

AHHHHHHHH LEGA SANGAT :)

Jangan ulangi lagi ya.

Aku rasa macam taknak dudk rumahlah, haha celaka gila ayat -.- tak tak, maksud aku aku nak pergi cari kerja sementara nak tunggu result ni. So, abah kata kasi relax dulu. Tenang fikiran semua, then 2 3 hari duduk barulah cari kerja.

so, Okaylah :)

extreme madness

'HOOMYYYGOODNESSS!'

I just dont know what to say anymore, but pleaseeee i just cant stop trying and dreaming to be like her. 

Im still learning how to make-up just like her face. 

Dyyuummmmm i am so in fucking love with her -.-

just look at her! she is just toooo hot for me goshhhhh!

 She's wearing YSL sunglasses and she looks so hot guys! 

ohh pleaseeee T_T

haha gues what? im almost done with it! 

its just the part of sweep je :P

and the best thing is i already know what are the colours that she use it :)

hua!

KIM KARDASHIAN, IF YOU ARE THE MALAYSIAN, I AM SURE THAT I WILL FIND YOU AND JYEAAHH I WILL MEET YOU TOO ASKING YOU THESE ALL QUESTION :

how do you keep your skin?

what are the foods you ate everyday?

how to make our face more highlights?

how we want to always keep up our appearances and attract people's attention?

jyeahhhh i got alot of moreeeeee

hahaha i love makeup, i love fashion, i love colours! 

i just want to tell, that im soo obsessed with her :D 

JAAAAAAA

HUA! 

SISTERS! where are you guys?

Okay ayu rindu semua kakak:

ayu rindu qy

ayu rindu kty

ayu rindu ila

ayu rindu rara

ayu rindu ieyka

Bila masa bosan je, mesti teringat korang. Teringat nak lepak-lepak, gosip2 best sangat :'(

Sisters, nanti minggu depan adikmu ini akan habis paper. Harap ayu boleh lepak dengan korang semua. Awww macam nak nangis bila teringat time kita sembang2 dalam kereta, dekat kedai makan and semualah.

Tak sabar nak cerita semua benda dekat you guys. Tak sabar nak rasa kehidupan selepas ni. Mungkin lebih gembira atau sebaliknya. 

Ayu sentiasa ingat kty and rara and qy cakap macam ni

"takpa yu, jangan tension2 sekarang, ala lagi pun nanti dah nak habis sekolah"

"nanti dah habis sekolah percayalah, masing2 akan berdengki even membe rapat sendiri"

"yu, kau relax je, nanti kau akan tahu siapa kawan, siapa lawan"

tak pernah pudar dari fikiran ayu. alwayssss :) 

but you all are right, sebab ayu dah boleh tengok symptoms-symptoms dia :]

dah dah, ayu ingat juga yang kty and rara tak habis2 saja bagi ayu berkeadaan macam cacing kepanasan

"yu, nanti dah habis sekolah baru senang nak bawa mana2"

HA-HA-HA

nanti nak pergi clubbing sama-sama yayyy haha *watatatatafakk -.-

Ayu sayang kalian semua tau!

MUAAHHHHH :)

Dear Friends, i hope you listen

I just miss to talk , hangout, fight, laugh, sad with them :'] 

It  is, i mean it

• Ausi Fathihah

• Nursyahiza Fazira

• Nurul Najla

• Ammelia Shuhadah

• Effa Syawani 

• Aeisyah Afikah

• Siti Zulaiha

• Faten

• Nayli Nadhira

• Nur Farhana

• Nur Hanim

1. Thanks sebab selama ni korang ada bantu aku tak kesah lah dalam apa hal sekali pun, terutamanya dalam pelajaran  
2. kalau ada korang sakit hati ke apa, please maafkan aku 
3. Aku taknak kita saling musuh-memusuhi
4. Aku senang berkawan dengan korang semua selama ni
5. So, itu sahaja kalian :)

Love, Ayu / 13 December / 22:56pm

Meaningful

If god give me the time for 24 hours before i die, 

I will spend over 23 hours to be with you.

And another 1 hour, 

I will find someone who can take care of you after my death

Love, ayu 

YES, It is

YES,

i know you are unhappy with me,

we usually share everything,

BUT,

that the thing wouldnt arise again ;[

YES,

we're both often conflicting,

always,

YES,

i can know from your words,

i can see from your eyes,

i can smell from your breath,

and

i can  feel from your heart :')

Hey fellow, 

if you know about this poem,

that I created for you,

are so special to you,

will you come back and be with me?

YES, it is 

will you answer like that?

will you?

will you?

will you?

i know,

i did wrong things to you,

i did it again

i did it

i tried 

tears T_T

BUT,

i know,

i know you will not be returned to me,

i know,

you will not forgive me,

If you know the real heart of this

Is actually kind of fine sand on the beach

BUT,

the fine sand on the beach,

it would be gross,

IF the wet feet  step on it and pushing it in  

at the time,

it took so long to dry back again,

same as my little heart,

sad,

sad,

and sad

NO USE!

because you've been looking for another fellow.

After you read this, listen to your heart,

listen it, carefully, 

think about it, 

smile :)

I will always pray the best for you fellow

sincerely,

Idayu Sukaimi, 8th December, 1:09am

Pissed Off.

Only two more papers to go. Perdagangan was great. Paper one i still can answer it with enough time and when the turn for second paper, initially, i tought i can answer it.

Im sure that im not that
over confident -.-

* he said so

When i reached home, i change my uniform, i walked to toilet, i pee and wash my face. Abah asked me about the paper. I say i cant make it. He quiet. I wash my hands. Open the fridge and get some ice water. I drink it. Ahhh. I ate. I call hakim and told him about today. And suddenly i T_T

For almost 30 minutes im on the phone with him.

I feel better :']

I know who i am. I was pressure that time. I dont know what should i do and i cant even right thinking. I think i have been careless, for this time. It is. I realize. It was my mistake. May be, by hurting someone's heart and saying something that would make him/her sad and touch with my words make me cant do it :[ i mean it. Life it is full off carma. Some people, they dont even think about real life and dont even know what are their purpose for living in this world. For me, there are so many things that i should study more out there. Im stupid. I accept it :)

Im glad when i saw Puan Roha's name on my phone screen. She's calling me :) I picked up. She asking about the second paper. I told her that i cant make it. She keep bla bla bla.. and okay bye bye thank you cikgu :)

Finish with that.

I just dont like when someone who keep shackle me -.- *go and search that meaning



I know you care about me. Glad to have you. Thanks for coming in to my life. Sometimes i just cannot stand it anymore. I am human. I am not a robot or even teddy. Please. I wont lose you because i love you. This things can make we both split. I dont want that.

Please change it, im begging you.
You are part of my life.  I wont lose you.


Tears :')


So,
The next paper will be on this Monday. Its Pendidikan Seni Visual. And followed by last paper, Ekonomi Asas.

Wish me all the best and i trust everything to the gods. Insyaallah.

Roses

Thank god finally i finished my Bahasa Melayu, English, Mathematics, Sejarah, Pendidikan Islam, Pendidikan Seni Visual, Science papers. Fuhh i  can just start breath out. Dyumm i feel so stress while not answering the "azab" paper for me, which is MATHS -.- + SEJARAH -.-

Quiet :*

I still counting :)

smile for that. huaaa!

I just creat a group in facebook. Its for form five students for 1993 batch. For me, it makes me more easier and easy for them to contact each other. In fact, mayb some of them include me, we can share some opinion about our plan after this SPM :) hee smile again!

Dreaming..

I got my own name card, wearing a heels, with corporate dress, walking with straight body, good posture.
Drive a big car, leave in the  big home and dyummmmm ! will be continueee haha

I reallyyyy dont know what are my reason i wrote this and tell ya about this nonsensse think, like Pn Viji always say

" idayu, u aa dont lah like to wrote so many things on the introduction , i woke up at 7, i ate sandwich, i wear my clothes, i walk to school, i met my friends, empty! "

hahah!

I just can stop to waiting and waiting for my last exam paper, thats all -.-

L